Some Mistresses might be into the whole feminization of the sissy. She may want to dress you up real pretty, make you up and make you feel sexy. She may even train you in your feminine posture and getting just the right girlie voice. She wants you to be just as feminine as you want to be, and She can show you the way.
But Mistress has other needs from Her sissy. She's already introduced chastity. This was a must. You were getting locked up whether you wanted it or not, so get used to it sissy. But, Mistress wants to take it a step further. She wants to tie you down, gag you, blindfold you, completely deprive you of your senses, and She loves doing this. She may want to spank you at some point.
It's not that She wants to hurt you really. She wants to make you squirm, sure. She may want to hear you beg, at least until the gag goes into place. Then, She might want to see you cry, until the blind fold goes on. Why would She does this to you? Does She hate you? That's not really it at all. Quite the contrary. She's looking to put you in touch with feelings you never knew you had. These are often feelings She's had during Her life.
There were times where She felt helpless. She needed somebody for Her, and nobody was there. She was alone. Often times, it was an insensitive jerk who could care less about Her feelings as long as he got what he wanted. It didn't happen just one time, but repeatedly at different times in Her life. This becomes an outlet for Her, a sort of therapy. She's in control, and you depend on Her now for mercy. You have to trust that She won't hurt you. Can you do it? You will have doubts.
Now you have submitted to her, and She's wanting to do these things to you. You don't know if you can let your guard down that much to trust Her. Chastity is one thing, but this is total helplessness. Anything can happen to you, and Her mind will be thinking of ways to torment you, to push you a little further past your limits. Can you trust Her? Remember a D/s relationship is all about trust.
Your mind will be racing with so many thoughts as She ties you up. You can't move now. She's taunting you and even threatening you, and because you have submitted to this, you can't do anything about it. What if she makes good on her threats? Now you can't speak, and nobody can hear you scream. Then comes the blindfold, and now you can't see. Her taunts are the last thing you hear as she plugs your ears.
Now, you sit helpless to Her whims as She has you right where She wants you, all dressed nice and pretty, bound and gagged, chastised and plugged. You aren't going anywhere, and you can't even tell Her how you feel. All you can do is think about your situation. How does it make you feel? You wonder if She cares about you? If you are in a relationship, does She love you? Your mind won't stop with all the thoughts and questions.
And She's not even there to worry about it. She just left you there and went out for a bit. You start to wonder where She went. Is She there? Where did She go? If She went, where did She go to? Who is She with? When is She coming back? Will somebody be coming back with Her? What will She do with you when She returns? So many questions, but no answers. She loves your inner turmoil in these moments. How does it feel, sissy?
Why would Mistress want to do this to you? Lost of reasons. The power and control. The act of submission to this, which is your gift to Her. You trust Her enough to do this to you and not to hurt you. So, when Mistress asks you to submit to Her in this way, can you do it? Think of all She does for you to bring out your feminine side. If She can give you all of that, is this really so much to ask?
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